I'm recovering from the 3rd flu strain/bug in 3 weeks. Ugh. The kids are sick too. As for my marriage, I'm a little more mellow today. I do feel that if I was nicer to him, he would probably be nicer in kind. I feel soooo much resentment towards him though--for not helping, for having the luxury of being depressed, for doing whatever he damn well pleases without being a part of this family. And today he "came out of his cave" looking for sex. Nothing else. He didn't come out to see the kids or to offer to help or anything--he just wanted his needs met. And that is supposed to be a turn on? I don't think so. Did I mention I have a lot of anger along with that resentment?

I feel a little bad core dumping here. Who wants to read this drama? Well, I just think that some day this might be a good record for me if I need it. And when I'm not bent on hating my husband, perhaps I'll talk more about my autistic son. I need to deal more with that too.