My earliest memories.  When I was about five years old or so.  My mother strapped me down to the kitchen table and then brought my sisters in and announced that she was going to change me from a bad child (male) into a good child (female).  Then she came at me with a rusty spoon.  I awoke hours later in my own bed and did not know if I had dreamnt this or really experieced it for years.  A sister told me that yes it had happened.  This is my first experience at dissociation but hardly my last.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Holy shit. I did not expect this. I don\'t know what to say...
deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m so very sorry...my heart is hugging that little boy...and you...ox...
deleted_user
deleted_user

i am so sorry to hear this :( hugs to you.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Thanks for opening up like this. Sorry I\'ve been a while reading. I\'ve not been in a good place. How\'s it feeling to get things off your chest? I hope it helps. Hugs!
angel1313
angel1313

oh now my turn to say SHIT. OMFRICKIN GOD....
weinere46
weinere46

lolllol Sorry, thought you were beyond shock and it made me laugh.
angel1313
angel1313

NO SORRIES LOLOL.
weinere46
weinere46

;)!
deleted_user
deleted_user

Only reading all your entries now..... I shall say this till the end of my days, you were meant to be right here right now as a true example of an overcomer, bless you.