Just writing down my thoughts for today to help get them out. Still processing the crazyness of my baby being give unsupervised access and others, that this is apparently the norm. Shocking, not just to me but to many. The sun was out today. We went to the park, watched the boat race on the lake and later played in the garden. The health visitor sent me a nice note and a booklet. The solicitor sent me another letter.The feeling of dread i get when i see them. I have to decide whether it's worth making a statement to the police although they have the details on record now and i know that they are on my side. Thankfully. They are phoning me back in a few days when they have spoken to social services to see if they have any advice for me. Refuge have not been back in touch yet by e-mail. Prob go to bed soon. Had a nice peaceful evening. Can't help developing a sense of waryness not sure if this is because i feel so let down by the courts and barristers. SLight fear of speaking out but a slight fear of keeping quiet. Just what i had got away from by getting away from that bastard. Hope Hope Hope.