Scared

So with all the stuff going on with my kids and trying to make sure their ok, I kind of put myself on the back burner for the past 4 years. When I did start going back to the Dr I was focusing primarily on my heart palpitations and other various symptoms, worried I might Fybromialgia. Well, now it appears I may have Cervical Cancer. My regular Dr didn't even do the full exam, she gave me lots of sympathy looks and referred me to a gyno. As I wait for my appointment and the results of the PAP (which she said she was sure would be abnormal by the look of my cervix) I keep thinking about my possibly cervical cancer related symptoms, and how most of them all started about 2, maybe 3 years ago. I'm pretty convinced it's full blown cancer at this point. I'm so worried it's too late, that it wasn't found in time. I'm worried about what's going to happen to my kids. And I feel so alone. My BF is in denial. All he keeps saying is, "You're going to be fine."