Dreading today and this weekend. My son is suppose to be coming over for visitation and I still don't know how to keep it together without him knowing and I still can't bring myself to not be reminded by the lies and pain. Just being near my own child?!? How in the world are there people that enjoy doing this to others? This is why I don't think he's safe, but I have no way of proving he isn't. I feel like a terrible person for not knowing what to do.