Yet another day where i feel like nothing can get any worse. How can life be like this, where every time you turn around something bad happens. Im so scared, tired, hurt, lonely. For only being 32 years old, i feel so defeated in life. I saw my life going in a completely different direction when i was younger and now i can barely remember any skills learned from schooling and what's even more terrible is i don't think i'll ever be able to survive without some type of help from other people. I don't think i'll ever be independent enough to provide for myself like i use to. I pray and pray. It shames me that im a failure in my family. I know i need help. I've been asking and seeking it out for quite some time. Times like these, most people are about themselves to even worry about others and care even less to understand. I wish i had something to hold onto that could give me hope, but right now i feel there is none to be had.