Day 313, and I've never felt more at peace. Ever in my life. I've never known peace, since I started chasing the bottle at 14, and eating disorders at 15, I haven't had a single minute that belonged to me, my life was given over to chasing, chasing, chasing the buzz, the taste, the filling THING I couldn't find or keep. Oh help me, total cliche, but... don't make me say it... I found out that... aarrrghhhh...it was always inside me, the whole time... SORRY!!! It was!!! I hate cliches!!!Sobriety is like a great rock I'm standing on. It makes me strong and confident and capable. ME!!! I've alway just been Little Dawn, the one everyone took care of, the one that always needed scooped up and carried out... watched over... Next week my best friend is going in for a double mastectomy. OUT-PATIENT. She will be sent home in a condition in which NO ONE should be sent home. But Thank you God, I will be there for her, I'm moving IN with her, and I'm going to give back what she's given me for so long... if she'll let me, she doesn't much let anyone take care of her...
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