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I feel so good. I'm really here. I'm... me.This is really me. 5 months sober, 5 months free of bulimia. I feel free of it. I'm eating like a normal person. Well, like a normal person with a ridiculous weakness for sugar. But the point is, I don't think about binging. I don't even much think about over-eating. And purging... is so far gone from my mind, it's... it's just gone, like it didn't happen for 30 years. 30 years of it! Thank you, God, I'm free. I just feel free. I had 14 months before, of "recovery" from bulimia, back in 2005-2006. But I still had the alcoholism. I was still chained to an addiction. And I wasn't really in recovery from the bulimia either, I would have to say I was restricting a lot, and substituting alcohol for food. It wasn't recovery, it was substitution. And when I relapsed, I fell hard. I'm going to make it.
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