Sunday
Ooooo in the pinnnnkkk...Sunday. Last night, made love with husband. This is noteworthy, as it has been months, MONTHS, has it been 6 or 7 months?! That is insane! My husband is HOT! I am HOT! WHAT THE HELL?! We should be doing THAT every daggone night!!! Or at least 3 times a week, GOD!!!! Ridiculous! I'm going to intend something here, right here and now: I intend to connect with my husband intimately, 3 or 4 times a week, from this day forth. I've been missing out, I've been denying myself, as well as him. I'm so relieved, basically, that I still got it. That he still has it. It still works. HAR! Sober sex, and plus, right after eating PIZZA sex, what will we call that, 'Full-belly sex"? WHatever, I am 5 months sober, and 5 months binge/purge FREE, I have a great marriage, a nice house (though smelly at the moment, some form of "mildewy" smell, the source of which I intend to track down today), 4 mostly healthy children (the oldest is a mess psychologically, let's face it, but we're working on it...). I don't think about alcohol or food every damn minute of every damn day... I do struggle at times, I am not free from the struggle, but I'm free from the behaviors. I have so much more time now!!! I have to run! Projects to do! Life to lead! Furniture to paint! Mildewy smells to track down!
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