Well this might change tomorrow but let me write this down so I can look at this and say oh that is what I really feel about the issue. About not being able to have children, I would say I am quite lucky because I will only  be responsible for myself and it is quite a relief knowing that I am not going to bring anybody in this world who would have to live with something that they are not responsible for, the rest of their lives. I also feel that it is highly unlikely that I will find someone to start a family with so that is not one of my goals anymore. My priority is getting out of the mess that I am in right now and hopefully have fun the rest of my life.  I am sorry my future children I will see you next time.