worried

I am feeling better  because my throat infection has subsided. I will see my therapist.at the end of this month.when I look outside I can't help but feel how helpless I am . It is snowing now and it reminds me of the rains in India . I would have loved to visit.  I feel like a totally worthless failure of a human being. I am trying to learn everything  about my condition but I feel alone because I have never met  anyone with my condition in person . I quit my fourth job which makes me angry at myself . I just do not understand why I can't be like everyone else. I cannot blame my condition for my failure to hold a job because people with my condition are of normal intelligence and some  even above average.  I look on Youtube for videos of turner syndrome and it amazes me how those ladies are living their life not affected by their condition . They always have a supporting family behind them. I am tired of how I let myself down and let my sister and mother down . I don't want to be the person who sits at home  when my family is  toiling it out there to make both ends meet.