Dear Fran
Sorry for being late writing this. I couldn’t keep to what I said I’d try and do for one month, but I’m going to stand by “better late than never” and do this on the 4th rather than the 30th. Anyway, this month has been pretty tricky if I’m honest, and not particularly happy. I guess the obvious reason is Tristan, I hadn’t spoken to him in so long and no I feel guilty because of that, it’s awful and this really has made the world a worse place just for him not being in it. The day of his funeral, as I couldn’t make it, I got very drunk and then gave my closest friends a bit of a speech about him, how I regret not talking to him, always thinking there was more time to do so and how the world could only be worse off without him there, without exception. That night Cato died, I found the next evening from a text from my parents. I found that pretty difficult too. I think it reflects well on my two closest friends that one of them offered me a double whisky and the other offered me a cigarette, both of which I took. They’re both great, it’d be hard to find people better than them. I feel like I could keep talking and talking about this though I really shouldn’t, so I’ll try and cover some other stuff.
One of them (the one who offered me a cigarette) broke up with her boyfriend of a year recently so has been pretty upset. I’ve been trying to be supportive and to help look after her, including staying over a couple of times with her, to make sure she’s alright. She seems to be alright most of the time though sometimes when life throws her a curve ball she finds it pretty tough. I’d like to be able to help more though I’ve just no idea how.
Also, as ever, there’s a lot of work which gets horrifically stressful at times, to the point where I can’t actually concentrate on what I’m supposed to be doing, I know it’s just about staying on top of everything but a lot of the time that’s easier said than done, especially with trying to balance the revision for all of the different modules. This seems to be aggravated and compounded by the f act that a couple of my housemates are starting to grate on my nerves right now, I’m hoping when the pressure alleviates it’ll all go back to being ok again, though I’m never quite sure it will.
Finally we’ve got issues with the climbing club. Our old treasurer was pretty useless so now it seems that the buck stops with me and I’m going to get it in the neck, I think we may’ve accumulated a bit of debt that we really can’t afford over the past two terms and this could cause problems later on down the line if we don’t work out where the money has been going. I really don’t want this to sink the club but it’s worth being mindful of what’s going on and what could happen. Things could go south pretty quickly though the balance sheets we’ve got aren’t complete and are a bit obtuse to try and sift through. Everywhere I look things just seem to be going wrong right now so it’s going to take a lot of effort to pull everything back together. That said nothing seems totally lost right now so over the next month everything should hopefully sort itself out, fingers crossed. I guess only time will tell.
Anyway, take care
Sorry for being late writing this. I couldn’t keep to what I said I’d try and do for one month, but I’m going to stand by “better late than never” and do this on the 4th rather than the 30th. Anyway, this month has been pretty tricky if I’m honest, and not particularly happy. I guess the obvious reason is Tristan, I hadn’t spoken to him in so long and no I feel guilty because of that, it’s awful and this really has made the world a worse place just for him not being in it. The day of his funeral, as I couldn’t make it, I got very drunk and then gave my closest friends a bit of a speech about him, how I regret not talking to him, always thinking there was more time to do so and how the world could only be worse off without him there, without exception. That night Cato died, I found the next evening from a text from my parents. I found that pretty difficult too. I think it reflects well on my two closest friends that one of them offered me a double whisky and the other offered me a cigarette, both of which I took. They’re both great, it’d be hard to find people better than them. I feel like I could keep talking and talking about this though I really shouldn’t, so I’ll try and cover some other stuff.
One of them (the one who offered me a cigarette) broke up with her boyfriend of a year recently so has been pretty upset. I’ve been trying to be supportive and to help look after her, including staying over a couple of times with her, to make sure she’s alright. She seems to be alright most of the time though sometimes when life throws her a curve ball she finds it pretty tough. I’d like to be able to help more though I’ve just no idea how.
Also, as ever, there’s a lot of work which gets horrifically stressful at times, to the point where I can’t actually concentrate on what I’m supposed to be doing, I know it’s just about staying on top of everything but a lot of the time that’s easier said than done, especially with trying to balance the revision for all of the different modules. This seems to be aggravated and compounded by the f act that a couple of my housemates are starting to grate on my nerves right now, I’m hoping when the pressure alleviates it’ll all go back to being ok again, though I’m never quite sure it will.
Finally we’ve got issues with the climbing club. Our old treasurer was pretty useless so now it seems that the buck stops with me and I’m going to get it in the neck, I think we may’ve accumulated a bit of debt that we really can’t afford over the past two terms and this could cause problems later on down the line if we don’t work out where the money has been going. I really don’t want this to sink the club but it’s worth being mindful of what’s going on and what could happen. Things could go south pretty quickly though the balance sheets we’ve got aren’t complete and are a bit obtuse to try and sift through. Everywhere I look things just seem to be going wrong right now so it’s going to take a lot of effort to pull everything back together. That said nothing seems totally lost right now so over the next month everything should hopefully sort itself out, fingers crossed. I guess only time will tell.
Anyway, take care
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