Spring is in the air. The weather has improved by leaps and bounds. From huge amounts of snow and a lot of cold days just a week ago, to 60 degrees and sunny.I wish I was able to enjoy it. NOT. The spring, or at least the beginning of spring brings on my darkest moods. For me it marks the end of a year and the beginning of another. Instead of looking at it as a possibility that things will improve, I find it brings on despair in knowing that the year just ending, ended in much the same way that others have in the past. Still Lacking in the peace of mind I so despcerately need ~As I get older it becomes far more evident that I'm not about to 'find myself'. Not to that great an extent that my life will improve and that the negative thoughts I experience as Bipolar will go away. I'm still not about to promote my talents with the confidence I require to do so. It'll likely not be any different than any other year. Blah!I'm not online much anymore. I'm not meaning to neglect the friends I'm fortunate enough to have met via Daily Strength. You are all very much a part of who I am and I think of you each and every day ~My mood will improve as I become used to the change in the weather. I'll start to believe that if I persevere that I can strengthen whats left of my will to live, as I HAVE MUCH TO BE HAPPY FOR! I need to remind myself of that though,... as do you all in respect to your personal struggles... We can get through difficult times that much easier by leaning on each other ~ I'm not neglecting you. I'M HERE. Just a little more passive in my presence...Although easier said than done, peace will follow us if we allow it to ~Hugs,Roscoe
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