Saturday i got drunk and acted like a complete idiot in front of my boyfriend. The man that I love and loves me back. I felt so horrible about it for a very long time. I felt scared as well. That I don't have control of myself. I thought these feelings of the day after would end when I left Jay but obviously they didn't; they are still part of my life. I don't want my life to be like this. I want to be healthy and happy. I have found a wonderful man who loves me despite my horrible drunk episodes and I want to be the best I can be for him. Please help me!