Anxiety
I am feeling a lot of anxiety today and just sort of noting it here and hoping for a turn around as the day progresses. I have been reading about anxiety a lot and have learned so much over the past couple of years. Ha. I never had anxiety or panic before in my life until this started happening with my ex. (thanks)
Today I woke up with is. Not sure why that happens but now I am at work and it is still sitting there like an ache in my heart. Luckily work keeps me very busy but the anxiety just feels like... like I need to take action. I would love to take some action.
1. Go get my daughter and bring her home. She is 19 and too young for this crap. Take care of her and wrap her up forever in kindness and love.
2. Tell my ex to knock this crap off. Be a man and take care of your family. Knock on my door and say how you are going to fix everything. Go into counseling and quit drinking. Take care of my kid for a day. YOU worry for one day so I can have just one day off from the worry.
3. Job transition. Enough already. How long does it take to transition? Figure it out and lets make the change already.
4. Everyone is moving? My family (brothers family that lives nearby) wants to relocate to an island nearby. Okay, then, do it. Let's get a move on. If I am going to move again, let's move again.
I guess today I feel anxious because I want action. This is what I learned. I want action because I am very uncomfortable with my feelings. I know that I need to sit with these uncomfortable feelings and allow them to be. It is hard. The helplessness to fix the people I love is very uncomfortable.
NC: 1 week, 2 days, 23 hours, 10 minutes
Today I woke up with is. Not sure why that happens but now I am at work and it is still sitting there like an ache in my heart. Luckily work keeps me very busy but the anxiety just feels like... like I need to take action. I would love to take some action.
1. Go get my daughter and bring her home. She is 19 and too young for this crap. Take care of her and wrap her up forever in kindness and love.
2. Tell my ex to knock this crap off. Be a man and take care of your family. Knock on my door and say how you are going to fix everything. Go into counseling and quit drinking. Take care of my kid for a day. YOU worry for one day so I can have just one day off from the worry.
3. Job transition. Enough already. How long does it take to transition? Figure it out and lets make the change already.
4. Everyone is moving? My family (brothers family that lives nearby) wants to relocate to an island nearby. Okay, then, do it. Let's get a move on. If I am going to move again, let's move again.
I guess today I feel anxious because I want action. This is what I learned. I want action because I am very uncomfortable with my feelings. I know that I need to sit with these uncomfortable feelings and allow them to be. It is hard. The helplessness to fix the people I love is very uncomfortable.
NC: 1 week, 2 days, 23 hours, 10 minutes
Replies
Congratulations on the NC. You are doing fantastic!
Remember to b-r-e-a-t-h-e and meditate. Even just a few minutes a day can help w/the anxiety. Honoring and accepting our feelings is key to healing.
As for taking action, figure out what you can and can\'t do. Then do what you can and the stuff you can\'t do, accept it and honor it and do your best to let it go.
It also helps to create a vision board so you can see the progress you are making. Recognizing you are actually moving on even when it doesn\'t feel like it, can help lower the anxiety.
Finally, music, chanting, guided imagery, etc. can many times melt the anxiety. You just have to find what works for you. If you\'re interested, pm me and I will send you some links.
~healing hugs~