In a way, it's a relief to have my grandfather's funeral behind me. I have been increasingly sad and irritable this week, with a few other negative impacts in my life as well, but now I can let the past go behind me and move forward again, hopefully toward something happy. My kids were so well behaved at the funeral, better than I expected. even the military salute they stayed where they were instead of rushing forward. I guess I will grieve to myself a little longer, less and less as the sun shines through the clouds of my own misery.