Anxious..

Well,Its a whole new year and Im ready to keep going forward in keeping bloos sugars in control and getting better.Have lost 25 lbs and plan to continue that.Staring to have a lot of anxiety over tomorrows blood work and then my appt on the 10th to find out how well I have really been doing.
A lotof dread/anticipation going on.On 1 hand I want to know what the results are and dreading they are still not what the Dr wants them to be.This is my 1st 3 month check since starting glucophage and changing my eating.My numbers through the day are good unless I eat something I know is going to make them spike which I havent really done any of that...
Part of me feels like things will be okay.I mean its only been 3 months and although Ive done well I dont think he (Dr) or I should expect perfection.I dont want the med to be increased anymore nor do I want to have to be on any other meds.Morning numbers still going up and down.Funny how if I wake up at 3am to go to restroom and check BS its right on where he wants it and then at 7am much higher...Dont know what more I can do to change the numbers in the morning..
I can only pray and keep fingers crossed that all will be okay.I do know that if I cant relax they are going to be up because I been stressing over it..