Day 50

On day 50, I realize that this time, it has become a HABIT to NOT drink.  Stopping for shorter periods of time did not have that benefit.  So now, when it's cocktail hour, I do NOT have to stop myself from drinking.  It's not even an impulse.  I just grab a soda, or make myself some hot cocoa, or just get more water, and sit down to watch the news.  Then I cook dinner, completely sober.  I am not dropping things, or messing up recipes.  When I eat, I don't spill on myself (rarely anyway).  I used to think of spilling a little food on my shirt as "normal."  Now I realize that when you aren't drunk - it's much easier to eat your food without making a mess.  It's these little things that take me by surprise.
End of Rant.