Today i went to the mall to get a couple of books to read over the weekend maybe definatly outside. I don't know what it is with spring but every damn corner i turned there was a baby girl here a baby boy there. It was hard but i forced myself to get my things done that i ahd to do. but why do they get their babies and i don't get to keep mine that is one freqing question i definaly want answered. i was just told a week after rebecca passed that i couldn't have children and that it was becuase of a heart defect and that my body would most likely be always rejecting the babies. it kills me to ehar that but i have decided along with my hubby that we are going the adoption route. doesn't matter if its our biological child, or adopted ( as i was adopted) we just want to beable to give a child our love and support and security. hope everyone is having a nice hot beatufil weekend as it is 15 celcius today here. that is hot compared to the -2 or below we've been having for the past few weeks. HAPPY SPRING EVERYONE!!!!