Well...Lets see I was told i had that stupid crap HPV nasty i hate it omg....i was told i had it in dec and i did treatments all thur dec and jan but i stopped and i dont think i shud have done that. but every time i made a appointment i chickened out and would call and cancel it. It hurts so bad They really need to come up with another one that doesnt invole Acid or INvloces knocking me out to do it..and He wants me to come in a week from each appt and im just going crazy here i mean thats alot  I'm not good with that kind of pain and im the type of person that has a mouth but doesnt use it and i dont like talking to people i dont know why but i wont speack up. And then theres the days they itch like crazy and others they dont i dont get that. They need to just go away.!!!! My mom and my family just wont listen to me about any of this i mean i know their just trying to help and look out for me but their not the ones going thur it i am. Same with my boyfriend he wont listen either and they keep telling me oh it cant be that bad im just like BULLSHIT*** lets see you do it.  And since i got this i mean im more depressed and things then i was before and i dont like that to much either. And my boyfriend keeps telling me i shouldnt let this get me down cause its just a std or virus and nothing to let control my life and im trying hard not to let it but its doing  a pretty good job of it as of right now. I mean i dont know how to handle this and im not taking to to well.  Speacially seeings how my mind thinks that if i have this no one will want me cause theyll be to scared of getting it them selves. I just dont know and kinda thinking about just giving up on it all.....