I feel beyond awful. Worse than the day of the breakup, because now I have no chance of redeeming myself. He has all the power, and any chance I had to get him back is gone. I solidified his reason for dumping me and now he is moving on with his life. Now I have nothing...no job, no place of my own, no boyfriend, only pain and regret. Nothing I can do from here on out will receive any satisfying reaction from him. I loved him so much but now my life is ruined because of it.
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Hey I felt the same exact way that you are describing right after my bff dumped me after I slapped him drunk. It couldn\'t get worse for me. But I listened to the website info www.exboyfriendrecovery.Com they said before anything else the only way to be sure of having a chance of getting be back together is 30 days no contact. I was on day 17 and my ex con tasted me. I ignored the text for three days and responder nicely but not needy.... then he replied and texted me again today...... .. give him space I\'m telling you he might come running back to you
Yeah, at this point I\'m not counting on him coming back and that\'ll make it easier for me. After I asked him via email a question about my computer (which he originally built for me), he gave the answer and then said \"you can text me next time, I don\'t mind.\" Well little does he know I already deleted his number (though I have it memorized). I like leaving it there because he expects that there will be a next time I contact him and to his surprise there won\'t be. Now I know he\'ll be wondering. I\'m not even going to break NC for his birthday in a few weeks. I talked to my brother tonight and he admitted my ex is arrogant and he never really liked him. He told me to not settle for someone like that. So I feel like despite all the stupid, desperate things I\'ve done, I can forgive myself. Everything I\'ve done up to this point was for me, not him. I needed to get all of that out of my system the way that I did, otherwise I wouldn\'t be ready to focus on myself. It\'s still embarrassing but I\'m sure over time he\'s going to remember the good things about me and pretty much forget the post-breakup stuff. When he sees a tv show we used to watch or something that reminds him of us, the\'ll think of me..not crazy me.
Anyway, you broke NC but in a dignified way so don\'t worry. Keep it up though! And be careful. My ex broke up with me in March, then turned it into a break 3 days later and we only took 2 weeks apart. It was lovely but he didn\'t do anything to fix his problems (he thought it was all me) and my therapy sessions ended a few months later when we moved. Our issues weren\'t completely resolved so they crept back up and destroyed us again.
Thanks for being a friend on here. I really needed someone to relate to in a support group. If you ever need advice don\'t hesitate to message me.