Just stuff

It's been interesting for me to say the least.....Tony has come back and we seem to have gotten back into some kind of "groove".....not sure how to explain it.  He has been helping out with some things around the house which has been so great and I'm just finding how much I so have missed that about him....I know I have spent the past 5 years "fighting" my feelings and I'm tired of doing that so I'm just going to enjoy what I can for now.  Do I worry about the consequences of this?  Absolutely....because in the end, I'm the one who is going to be left behind....I don't think for a moment that it would be a matter of choice for him...he would choose her over me considering our past and how I just walked away....I know he thinks about that.....but somehow it's 'different'....can't explain it.  Perhaps we are both more mature....perhaps he realizes what he did....I don't know...
In the meantime, I continue to date....had a date Thursday with Jerry from Deerfield.  Nice guy but definitely shorter than me....which is a dealbreaker.  He took me to this organic restaurant in Lakeview....very cute.  It was an art showing of a friend of his...nice time.  Definitely not feeling it with him and I haven't heard from him so that's fine.....
Got to spend Saturday with my main man Christian.....we took a little nap together!  So sweet....he is really getting to be chatty and it's so fun to watch him!
Kyle is doing well in Grand Rapids...miss him but so proud of him....we're going to head up there in a couple weeks to spend the day with him so looking forward to that....
Gotta run.....Baci!