Stuff

So.....decided to invite T to my house last Friday.....he had offered to take a look at the bike for me and so with Kyle being gone for the weekend thought I would invite him over.  We had dinner; he looked at the bike and then he immediately went to my bedroom....of course, a girl has to do what a girl has to do and I was certainly hungry for attention as it has been awhile.....have to say, wasn't that great.  I had these expectations of there being "passion", and ripping our clothes off and all the things that you see in a movie.....he just lays there like an ass and expects "me" to please him....I get a little in return but other than that, it's really about him!  And everything just all comes back to me of why I left this man other than the cheating...the unfulfillment of what he didn't provide to me emotionally.....and then to top it off he says to me.....this is going to be our little secret right???  OMG....is all I can say. 
I had to explore that and so I'm not regretting asking him over....what I really want to do is call him out on it but then again...who wants the drama!  I certainly don't.....I have peace and he doesn't bring "peace".....especially the fact that he is living with someone.  Tells me that she is a crossing guard for children and has been doing it for 30 years; has a child out of wedlock and is still married.....HMM.  I would have to say he traded "down" for sure.....he supports her financially.  
I can't even believe I'm talking about this....5 f...ing years and I'm still talking about this.....ENOUGH.....