Today

Today I had the most incredible conversation with a man by the name of Joe Amoia.  He is a dr by trade but decided to get into coaching and helping others with relationships etc.  I really connected with him and tapped into some pretty heavy deep stuff.  Told him about my relationship history and how I select the men that I do.  We broke my "self" into Julianna....who is the side of me that is upbeat and emotionally stable and then there is Carmella....who is the side that is currently in control and attracts the emotionally unavailable men.....
He does a 3 month program with 9 -45 minute calls.  His fees are so extremely costly and the Julianna side of me wants to make this happen but the Carmella side is saying save your money because this isn't going to work!  I'm just so at a place in my life right now where something has to change......it just has to.  That gap of time is getting narrower and as I continue to 'age' I'm just so afraid that it can never happen for me.  And I so don't want that for myself....
I truly feel in my heart that my partner may just not be here in the US.......I feel that he is in Italy waiting for me.....that loving person who shares the love of my culture and the history of my family.  So......?????
Baci.....