TGIF
Hey there.....not too much happening here for me these days. No new "men" on the horizon at this time....talking to a few but no potentials. Not sure what is up with that but perhaps this is the "season" that I'm just suppose to be in!
Not a day has gone by since saw Tony that I don't think about how I could have handled it differently.....how much I know in my heart that I still love him and will always love him. I think about how things could be so "different" but yet they really can't. Because I think about the fact that he has tried to connect with me again and he is living with someone! Do I want someone who conducts his life like that? Certainly not....one of the many reasons of why I walked away and I have to keep reminding myself of that. I guess it would be much different for me if I had someone in my life but I don't....but I'm proud of the fact that I didn't try to start something.....I know that it just wouldn't be good.....
The holidays are upon us again this year and looks like I will be 'alone'......but I'm just going to try with my whole heart to make the best of it and be thankful for what I have. We'll have Xmas early with the Roses and then I'll probably just end up working most of the time....
Nes has been reaching out to me sporaidically.....his "usual" crap. Called me on Thanksgiving night at like 11 wanting to know if I would come over to his house. Then the following night again......I didn't go. Very tempting but I just know that it would never amount to anything. He is so in a different place in his life......I'm not sure I want that 'drama' any more.....I like my life!!!
That's it for now.....stay tuned.....Baci
Not a day has gone by since saw Tony that I don't think about how I could have handled it differently.....how much I know in my heart that I still love him and will always love him. I think about how things could be so "different" but yet they really can't. Because I think about the fact that he has tried to connect with me again and he is living with someone! Do I want someone who conducts his life like that? Certainly not....one of the many reasons of why I walked away and I have to keep reminding myself of that. I guess it would be much different for me if I had someone in my life but I don't....but I'm proud of the fact that I didn't try to start something.....I know that it just wouldn't be good.....
The holidays are upon us again this year and looks like I will be 'alone'......but I'm just going to try with my whole heart to make the best of it and be thankful for what I have. We'll have Xmas early with the Roses and then I'll probably just end up working most of the time....
Nes has been reaching out to me sporaidically.....his "usual" crap. Called me on Thanksgiving night at like 11 wanting to know if I would come over to his house. Then the following night again......I didn't go. Very tempting but I just know that it would never amount to anything. He is so in a different place in his life......I'm not sure I want that 'drama' any more.....I like my life!!!
That's it for now.....stay tuned.....Baci
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