Today

It has been a difficult time for me...I emailed Julianna the other day and she responded to me.  I told her that I missed her and Anthony very much and that I loved them very much.  She answered me and said that I was like another mother to them and that she wished that her father and I were still together....I needed to let them know that and how I felt.  I walked away from their father but I wanted her to know that I did love them despite the fact that we were not together...I hope she understands that someday.I'm having a very difficult time at work.  With my boss and just the overall function of my role.  So I don't know what is going to happen at this point.  Just taking it day by day...I went on a blind date today.  It turned out great.  Nice man...has a boat at the chain so was a little hesitant about going but glad that I did.  I needed to comfort it and probably secretly had hoped that I would run into T but didn't...so it was a good thing.That's it for now....off to bed......