It has been quite a long time since I've written and I have to say I have missed being able to share my feelings here.  Where do I start?  Some things have changed since the last time I wrote.  Went to Italy; had a beautiful trip; come home.  Things were good for awhile and back to the same stuff.  The insecurity on my part has been even greater the past two months.  I started a new job in November and now I commute into the city which lengthens my day.  It limits when we get together which I thought would be good but not so sure.  I would have hoped that after 7 years of a relationship..there would be much more than this.  Instead..I feel like we're just "dating".  He is back to deleting his history on his phone..that damn cell phone!  It has been the root of all evil in this relationship.  What does that tell you??  Working every weekend and only spending Saturdays with me.  HMM???  It just goes on and on....Where to go from here?  I know that I need to focus my attention on this new job or I'm going to fail.  And I don't want that to happen....so that is going to be my first step.  The rest will have to just fall into place as God's will.....