Wow...I haven't written in some time so I thought I better jot down some things that have been happening.  My mother has never been an important figure in my life.  I love her, respect her but she has never really been there for me.  I think I've leaned more on my friends for support than my mother.  My father....well that is a story within itself.  He has never been a part of my life but I'm good with it now as I've grown older.  Just the way it is unfortunately.  I confided in my brother a few weeks ago about my latest falling out with my SO and expressed my concerns that he keep in confidential until I could figure it all out.  Well...he decides to betray my wishes and talks to my mother and father about the situation.  My brother told me about a month or so ago that if I were to continue seeing my SO, that he would not be in the same room with him ever and so now, after speaking with my mother, she has said the same thing to me.  It's not a good situation...who do you side with?  Family?  SO?  I'm stuck....This Italy trip is coming closer and we're on track with everything.  For me, it is to be a deciding factor of whether or not I want to continue this relationship.  A relationship that has been filled with lies, deceit, cheating etc.....