Wow...can't believe that I haven't had the opportunity to write here for some time!  Things are ok...had a huge fight on Friday night and dropped him off at his house after dinner and went home.  Same stuff....out together having a good time and stares at other women.  When I mean "stare" I mean outright stares at other women.  It is to the point sometimes when I'm speaking to him, he didn't hear a word that I said because he is too "busy" drinking in what he's looking at.  I've told him before that it's disrespectful to me and I would appreciate it if he did that on his own time not the time we spend together.  At first he answers with God gave me eyes so I may as well use them; sure...I understand that.  Just don't be so obvious about it when you're with me.  We all look...it's natural.Just another of the many things that have been so "wrong" in this relationship.  The only difference this time around for me is that I will not tolerate it anymore.  I told him as I've told him many other times, you feel that there is someone better out there for you, GO!  You see...I have no "energy" in me anymore to deal with his crap.  From the betrayal to the disrespect..it's enough.  And I have to say for the first time in my life, I feel great about standing up for myself for once.