I had a good weekend. Even though we're trying to heal this latest set back in our relationship, I find that I love him just a little less every time. I know that he is "trying" but that is his usual pattern. So I'm indifferent about it and I've gotten to the point where I'm not really sure I believe him this time.

So I'm playing the part for the sake of this impending Italy trip. I most certainly hope that things can remain calm until then. I hope to be able to make some decisions for where I need to be after this trip. Not what is always best for "his" needs.....I feel good about that decision.