I'm getting closer to finding out the truth. I really can't "rest" until I have everything in front of me. There has been a lot of circumstancial evidence but nothing that I would feel very positive about confronting him at this point. I want to actually "catch" him...kind of like the Cheaters episodes! I want to humiliate him and make him feel as shitty as he has made me feel these past 6 years.

I've given him my heart; I've sometimes comprised myself and my integrity and for what?

I'm getting stronger and I'll get there. For that I am very confident.

We are scheduled to take a huge trip in July to Italy. I was there 3 years ago to visit family and I'm going back again for a little longer this time. I can't get on the plane with him and go to Italy with malice in my heart in speculating the things that I do. I just won't do that to myself. So definitely some things to think about and consider.

In the end...it always seems to work out. Stay tuned.....