I'm feeling a little down at this moment. My other half of six years told me that he was going to be home tonight and when I called him, he was out supposedly at a bar in the city. When I asked him where he was, I get this defensive answer and why am I asking him??? Of course it draws your suspicion. I am not stupid!

We've had one instance of infidelity that I am aware of. We moved passed it together but do you ever get past it?? Now here we are again...I'm seeing things again in his cell phone that I question. I can't ask him because then he knows I'm snooping. And I hate the fact that I feel like I have to snoop. It consumes me..

I have so many positive things happening in my life. My daughter is graduating from college; my son from high school and my life is my own. I have a terrific job; beautiful home; great friends on an on. He and I have just booked a trip to Italy in July to visit our families and I don't even want to go with him based on these things that I'm seeing in our relationship.

So that is where I'm at today....