If I knew that I was going to only have you for such a short time I would have spent so manmy more hours with you in the hospital. Miss spending time with you. I miss visiting you my perfect angel sitting nexst to you and softly rubbing your tinny feet anf hands. Wish I could kiss your little face again.Oh how I dream of more time with you. And to look at you and hold your hand. You were so fragile but so brave and strong. I would give anything for thouse 10 days with you again. I try to carry on with life. and I do. But my mind is always full of memories of our short time together. I just can not come to accept that you are so far from me that I cant cuddel you and keep you safe.Please help mommy, I don't know what to do without you my little fire.You were taken from us way to soon. Wish you could come back, I miss you. You were / are my little miracle baby. I will always be wishing to have you back and to see your face again and hold your tinny hand. I love you forever and always and that will never change.
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Of course you wish that you could have had more time. It matters not how many minutes, hours, days or years we have had our children they are forever missed and the grief is so very palpable.
Breathing through these moments is all that you can ask of yourself and know that you are not alone... Each mom that is here understands in their own way this indescribable loss and are with you.
Understanding the longing and missing of your little angel, Alex Aiden.
Loving care dear Louise today and in the days ahead,
XO Joanie
You are great with your kind words. When does it get less intense ?
Grief has its own timeline... For many, it takes quite a long time. I know you miss your sweet baby boy with all of your heart, body and soul. As Joanie says, just breathe. Just hold the hands of the moms here and for now, just breathe!