I haven't posted here in awhile. I didn't have much to say that sounded like I was moving forward. Seems that the past few weeks I have been doing worse instead of better and have been fighting a bad depression. No one knows as when I am out and about or working, I act like all is well and make everyone laugh. Friends tell me how great I am doing. I get in my car or at home and fall into a depression. Things don't seem to be better. I is just about 6 months and I can't make the tears and 24/7 thoughts of my son go away. I was ok when I was visiting my daughter and worse since coming home. She was ok while I was there and she is depressed as well. I know this is a never ending emotion. I just wonder if I will ever feel happy again without having a broken heart that aches for my son.