Well I finally figured out how to write in my journal.  I am feeling really optimistic today.  I have been totally addicted to cigarettes for 40 years, have never been able to quit for even 12 hours, and I have nt had a cigarette in 4 days.  I pray I can stay off of them. I am moving around a little better already.  I really want to be around to see my grandchildren for a while at least