waiting...

I see the pulmonary hypertension specialist a week from Monday.
Meanwhile, I am trying so hard to stay positive and occupied.
I am crafting like crazy- fall wreath, crocheted candy corn, crocheted dog sweater...
But I am crazy scared...
Pulmonary hypertension is a really bad thing to have.
My primary care doc said to avoid exertion.
I don't know how to do that when the tiniest things feel like exertion to me.
Taking a shower exhausts me.
I can't lift the crockpot, or take out the trash, or hold the dog's leash when he tugs.
Everything makes me winded.
I took almost everything out of my purse, so that I could carry it.
And the clot is gone.  Both the CT w/contrast and the V/Q scan show that.
I should not be feeling this bad.