I just came back from the hospital. I had an ultrasound done to see if there was any tissue left over. There wasn't anything there. I got sad when I saw the screen and there was no baby inside of me. I just laid there and said I should be hearing a heartbeat and looking at my baby. It really made my husband sad and he usually doesn't show that side of him. He said the last time we were at the hospital we lost the baby and looking at the ultrasound just brought back those memories. I'm really sad today because of that and because I'm still bleeding. It's been seven weeks and it's been on and off and I'm getting frustrated. I just want it to stop. Everytime I go to the bathroom and see that I'm still bleeding, it makes me sad and upset. Sad that I'm no longer pregnant and upset because it seems like it's never going to stop. I wonder if I'll ever be the same again.
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Im sorry to hear that. I went in to my F/U apt yesterday. I just kept thinking ahead and telling myself that this baby wasnt strong enoulgh. That next time we will have a healthy baby to hold. Just keep remembering that. xoxo
I\'m sorry you had to see the empty u/s screen. I know how heartbreaking it is.
I bleed for 14 weeks after my first u/s. It was hell and it made my grieving process that much harder and longer.
Keep you head up, honey. Thins WILL get better.