Failure

Hitting my low point yet again.  My 29th birthday will  be coming up and I am still no where near where I thought I would be at this stage in my life.  I'm still at home with my parents, no kids yet, no boyfriend, and a job that sucks.  It's really starting to hit me that I feel like no matter how hard I try I just seem to fail at everything.  Some days, I'm okay. and others I just feel like giving up and leaving this damn earth.  I just want to be married and have a famiy and have a good job.  I have a Masters degree and work as a fuckin clerk...blahhhhh......
I dont know why its so hard for me to find a guy.  I'm a nice caring person who would do anything for anybody.  Why can't I just meet someone who wants to love me and be with me forever.    I know things arent perfect in life but I get so tired of trying and having it slammed in my face.  Failure knows me too well!!  I need a change in my life.  I cant live like this anymore.