Hurt

Looks like I have to have an HSG now... :(, really dreading this, I hoped some possible way that I could avoid having this procedure done.  I have read so many stories of the pain during the HSG, now I'm terrified of having it done.  I feel like I have no choice, I'm fixing to be 25 and I'm not getting any younger so I might as well see what is going on.  I just think back as an young girl, of imagining how my life would turn out, I never would have thought in a million years that I would be hard for me to have children.  I'm hurt cause it seems like everybody is getting pregnant so easily and I just think..why her not me.. it hurts that I'm in this situation, and unfair,,,is this really what I deserved.  My mom told me to have faith that things will work but I feel like that has gone out of the window, now I have to rely on science (surgeries, medications) to be able to have children one day.   I always wanted to conceive naturally and for it to be an surprise, but now that I am in this predicament it will not happen that way.  I'm heartbroken, depressed, and angry.