Meh....

Can't seem to get my head up this week. It wasn't a complete disaster, but I'm feeling really worn down. I was woken up at 3 am because of my boyfriend's snoring...if his snoring this week fucks me up this much...then I don't want to be here. What a worthless thing, being so fragile that you have to have a near meltdown if your sleep isn't perfect, or your meal times aren't perfect or your schedule changes on a dime. All things that make me feel completely shitty. It's called Darwinism...I shouldn't be here. If I can't function in society, then I shouldn't be here. Lots of people shouldn't be here, if I play by those rules.
Fuck, I'm just tired. I am buried in work and I am tired. Fuck life right now. Fuck everything...I'll be back tomorrow, Life. Get your shit together, cause I got shit to do!
On the up side, I missed 2 days of the plank/push up challenge because I was camping...but I'm still doing it! Now I'm on day 21--200 seconds! Push ups--6 reps each of 6 different kinds of push ups.