Goddess, please do not let me down. I need this job. I need this career. I know that this was an incredible gift that I did not really deserve. I did my due diligence, but I am no saint and I am no genius. I do not know how I can do this. I am skating by. I don't want to skate. There is too much to do, there is too much to learn. and I want to learn it. Why is my mind blank all the time? Why is it so hard to have a coherent thought? Please make it better. I cannot serve you this way. I cannot be tired all the time. I cannot grow and bloom and inspire others if I am beaten down by my own selfish heart. Please Goddess, keep me on track. Keep me awake. Keep me aware. Fill me with the fire of the forge, controlled chaos that creates weapons of war and the tools of peace. I am ready to wage war again on the demons that haunt me. I am ready to triumph over the negative spirits that cloud my mind. I am ready to banish the cold. Banish. Banish. Banish!
I am so cold. My heart hurts so much. I cannot light my fire in this damp sadness. What can I do, Goddess? What can I do?