"Hard"

I made 2 nights without going to the casino.  I thought my husband would ask me again last night to go.  I'm so glad he didn't. I worry about what I might say.  I don't want to talk to him yet about it.  I need to deal with me first.  He likes to go because of me.  If I don't mention it maybe he won't. 
The past couple of nights I have had plenty of time to think.  Why am I driving a 25 year old car (that barely runs) why don't I get new carpeting, why don't I go on a trip to see my family, why am I stressing myself out from paycheck to paycheck.  Why? Why?  I have let this gambling take over everything.  This has to stop. 
My goal is:
Get a nicer car
Get new carpeting
Go see my family
Pay off bills
Be happy again
In order for me to do the things above I MUST stay away from the casino's.
Please God give me the strength to do the right thing!