My kittens are almost 1 1/2 now. Ya, Where did the time go, Huh!?!? 2 sundays ago I had brought one of them, Shawdow to the SPCA to have her spayed...The Vets wanted $250.00, and someone told me the SPCA does them too, for $75.00, and xtra $10.00 for the rabie shots...Two days later shadow, started sneezing really bad and her nose would drip every so often..I called the SPCA about it and they said it is the chance we take bringing in our cat...I thought maybe they would have some antibiotics there for contagious sickness from one animal to another..Then I called the vets, her sneezing was getting worst.. The veterninarian said shadows gums had a bright bright red line all around her upper gums..Shadow was tested for lukemia, it came out negitive. She said her gum disease Gingivitis, is really to young for gum disease...and is just in her genes..They gave me antibiotics, enough to give to my other cat Spooky also... The vets wants to give her surgery, which costs $397.00, for dental work and I could pay it in payments, ya right! I'm not doing that, I'll brush their teeth if I have to...If they get infected again I'll get more antibiotics..The bright red gums are now gone, so that is cleared up.. But her nose seems more stuffy now...Today will be day 5, so I'll wait a few more days, before I'll call the vets again...Geeeez my Airplane flight is gonna cost that much...you know how we are with our animals, they almost are like kids.. Now that Erica has been gone to NJ to live with her BF, it has been the best thing for her, moving away from her Playgrounds and playmates....
Erica & I made plans for me to fly out to see her in NJ for the weekend in April.. Ryans 5 year angel date in 2 weeks...April 15th... I like the Idea of me going to see her instead of her coming home.. She has grown up so much since shes been around her old friends..Her bf is in the airforce in NJ...He has his pilot licence for one engine planes, now going for the biggy, airline pilot...Chris has taken her flying already, she video'd it, so I could see it.. I was a reck knowing she was going up in the plane with him, she called me when she was down on the ground, first thing.. I felt at ease with it all.....

I'm still trying to fined cheaper Air flights to the retreat.... I don't know if I dare to wait with the prices going up on fuel... I also need to find a couple roomates for the retreat, funds aren't coming in like it use to when Ryan was home with me and his sister... I really miss my younger years when they were little.. It hurts to much thinking about it, still after 5 years I can't go there in my head.. I get really down and depressed... I hate myself when i'm on my pitypot........I look around and see someone worst then me, and I feel really bad for those people, who have lost more then 1 child...Well enough from me... XO, Kelly