Back from the lost. Now I see what it's like when someone is not on for a while. They just need to step back sometimes and have some different kind of time. I had a comp glitch, and then just didn't feel like saying anything to anyone for awhile. Maybe I will just write some for me.I have been very up and positive lately-kinda' scary even. I know when its that way I expect the bomb to drop on my head next. Sad way to be but can't help how I am. I have a female surgery thingie coming up and am a little anxious about that-duh. I should be. Not real sure how the whole Xyrem thing in the hospital works. hehehe. what a dumb thing to wonder about. I can worry about the littlest things.Trying very hard not to fall into the "negative" thought patterns I get into sometimes. When that happens I just seem to spiral on down. Guess I am very prone to depression no matter what I try to think. I have actually lost 11 pounds! I am like way proud of myself. I hope it continues. I could stand to lose-hmm- about 25 more. No way though -won't happen. I would totally settle for 10 more. Then after my surgery I will be one hottie momma for my hubby-thats right-just in time for our Jan '08 20th anniversary-woohoo. Ok I got kinda' excited there. But I have told him that come 'ell or high water we will be going on a cruise! It will happen. Even if only a 3 day'er. Works for me.HappyHappy