So last night I suddenly became curious as to whether Facebook had a relationship setting for widow. Of course they did, but when I clicked on it, it removed "married to PJ". Instant panic set in and I hit cancel quickly. Guess I'm not ready for that update yet! How come I can accept his death but have difficulty accepting that I am no longer married. I guess my heart hasn't caught up to my head. Not sure it ever will. I don't want to not be married To him. I still feel that I'm PJ's wife even if he isn't here anymore.