Dear journal..

I'm feeling a little lonely and sad...my friends feel like they all might as well live on the moon, and not close by for as often as I get to see them...and I made the bad mistake of checking up on Mal's crush, which throughly bummed me out....such is life, I guess, I mean I can't blame him for moving on, I have in most says too-I just would appreciate the distraction of a crush right now, or even some fun-so that I felt less isolated, and more appreciated for who I am...you know what I mean? I miss fun and romance, and I just want to go back to school, and really enjoy my life the way I did at Whitworth....when I wasn't on teh verge of losing my job, but had challenging, produtive writing to do!! So-I feefl like here I go with another blah blah day, and I hate that feeling, becuase it isn't my family's fault-they didn't take me from my dreams..they rescued me from self destructing, when I was in a really low place in my life. But I just wish I wasn't so scared to go back to work tommorow, and of the future....I wish I could be happy at school again, and find the right path to take. Well, I know that this too shall pass, and that my anxiety will lift eventually, and I know that the Lord is good, and on my side, so I have nothing to worry about! I just am waiting to feel it in my spirit, I guess. I hope all you ladies have an excellent day :-)

:-) Jasmine