Dear journal,
What the flipping heck is wrong with me!!!! Things at the store caught up with me, and my manager says I'm just not working out...he "generously" allowed me the option to "step down" come saturday, if this week doesn't go well...but I have that to hang over my head three days in a row!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!! Why do I suck so bad? Why can't I believe that all things are possible with God right now, because I don't! Frankly it sounds riddiculous-I'm just a no account bi polar frail weak human being, and why should I even put myself through the anxiety of working this week, instead of just giving up.
-SIGH-
Whatever I do, it never seems to be good enough...and I have to be more than perfect to even get a second chance at Clark's. :-(
I'm so furious I just want to smack something upside the head!!!
-Mad in Marysville
What the flipping heck is wrong with me!!!! Things at the store caught up with me, and my manager says I'm just not working out...he "generously" allowed me the option to "step down" come saturday, if this week doesn't go well...but I have that to hang over my head three days in a row!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!! Why do I suck so bad? Why can't I believe that all things are possible with God right now, because I don't! Frankly it sounds riddiculous-I'm just a no account bi polar frail weak human being, and why should I even put myself through the anxiety of working this week, instead of just giving up.
-SIGH-
Whatever I do, it never seems to be good enough...and I have to be more than perfect to even get a second chance at Clark's. :-(
I'm so furious I just want to smack something upside the head!!!
-Mad in Marysville
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Honey, I know how discouraged you are, but don\'t give, trust God to help you. I love you, Mama
This is just a test an trial. Don\'t give up. Keep praising the Lord and He\'ll see you through. Mabe this job is not meant to be. Hard to say. But the Lord has a perfect plan for you. love ya