I cried myself again tonite... I have 2 jobs that I really like-blessing of loved ones beyond compare...yet at the end of the day, I always think of the fact that I will never see Mal again, and wonder if my heart will ever heal, or if this pain will ever go away-it's been two months-when will it go away!! I feel inspired to come out my shell, with a piece of poetry that I wrote, about confused about love, for the online writing site. I hope you ladies enjoy it! It expresses my feelings, on and off again most days...have any of you ever felt like this?


Tears wet my cheek, as the sun goes down-with a frown,I feel that it has set on my life as well. Will I ever love, ever live again? Can I feel the way that I did in your arms,sheesh, men! I want to believe that some caring, gentle lover can earn my trust, that we won't fight and fuss, and that he make me believe in love again, but only a sigh do I send- to the stars above. I wonder in my mind, all the time why I feel so alone. I see visions of past happiness in my memory, and poor me-I am the broken one inside, though on the outside I still give everyone a smile.

Thanks for listening :-)
and the Lord bless and be with you!

:-)Jazzi