Day 13
Today is Day 13 without you. Without your touch, warm smile, and comforting ways.. This is such a nightmare, it doesn't seem real, but it is very real. The not knowing what time we are facing is killing me. And all I can do is smile through the pain and try to stay busy. All my life, I have loved and lost. My mom died of cancer when I was 11, my best friend was shot and killed in front of me when I was 16, I lost my grandmother at 20, and I was in a horrible relationship filled with drugs, lies and betrayal for 10 years. Then, my life changed, I met Gregg. He guided me in the right direction and was kind to me when I had no one. I thought to myself, who is this guy, and why is he being so nice to me? But yet he was and he became my prince. I fell so in love with him, he was all I needed. I no longer spent time with family and friends, he was enough. 5 years later, he is facing prison time. I am now facing life without him and it's like grieving for a dead husband. I am semi ok when I am away from home, but once I get there, it's pure hell. Just like I am sure it has been at one point for a lot of woman! So, I am taking it day by day, second by second, if I have to...
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Hey i hope you don\'t mind me commenting.
your doing the right thing the not knowing bit is the worst it really is. You will believe it or not have good or at least better days once you know whats going on....in the mean time write to him if you can take his calls. You have things like visits to look forward to.
One thing that helped me when i got home was that i used to sleep in on of my man top kinda made me feel like he was still there. Just a idea for you.
hugs such.
Aww try to hang in there :) Some days are easier said than done believe you me. Just think about all the good things that you love about him; all the good times you\'ve had together! Like Suchaslife said look forward to visits; I wish I could visit mine but he\'s a state away and I don\'t have the funds right now to see him. And yes write, write, write; they love mail and it\'s a connection to you! Also send pictures and cards too :) I\'m in the same boat as you as far as the not knowing how long he\'s got but I tell myself I can do this! Oh and my guys name is Greg too
Thank you ladies, this is truly an amazing find. I am struggling speaking to my family and friends, as they just simply don\'t understand! Much needed support and the days do get better!
A lot of people really don\'t get it or understand why we stick with them......talk to us we really do get it. We did 4 years apart it was hard but the awesome people on this site help so much and in so many ways! They are awesome!