It's so amazing, that I didn't cry all day yesterday. I'm in between feeling good & feeling bad, I'd call it numb.
Later: went to dr, broke down in the office & later outside & at home. I'm trying cymbalta now for 3 wks to see how it feels, then will go back to dr. If I need something stronger, have to go to shrink. but just for meds. I've been to so many counselors & groups, tried so many prescription rx's, I just don't want to start again.
I'm still real emotional (it was all in there, waiting to come out!) but feel like there's a little hope as far as trying new meds. I gave up about 6 mo ago & stopped all my meds. She asked me if I was suicidal. I'm like, well, no, i could never do that to my family, but I am ready to die.
sometimes I feel really bad when I read others' journals, & I wonder if this is goof for me or not. but sometimes I feel that I can offer a little help because i've already experienced some particular situation that someone is talking about. this sounds really disjointed, i'll be back...